Shapeless, directionless. That's what I see whenever I'm in a city and don't know where to go, the way everyone else is walking. That is when I am lost. Of course I know I am at home now, it's just, how I've been saying, or heard this somewhere, that "Home is where the heart is.", well it isn't here. It just scattered into different places. Partially because my family is spread apart. But I was used to that n was only attached to my aunt and some cousins. I am holding onto somebody, who frequently goes from here to there to everywhere. The thing is, we usually only talk when we are face to face. Even when we are, I am just quiet because I don't know what to say anymore. Moving on for me, is something that always takes a long time to do. I just never have the relief cry. Nobody ever tries to cry, well I guess they do, I guess even I do, but no tears come out. Being with my aunt and cousin keeps me happy, it does get a bit awkward because I don't wanna be painted shadow. Always there you know, gets kind of annoying. I love how the pool is relaxing but it's really too small, can't dive. Parking sucks, and I was kinda worried, couldn't do the OOPS I MESSED UP LEMME DO A U-TURN thang. ONE WAY ROADS AGHHHH. But yeah, basically my diet is crazy. Vegetarian, without buying groceries so I eat random stuff. When I get my paychecks, me, at 17, I am going to buy my own groceries. My own clothes and everything. I did make some good selections before, just needed to take care of them, especially the shoes, gotta collect em. I plan to get some nikes and some formals. I might go Lacoste-ing again. But my friend told me how I should spend my money wisely. Which is what I'm going to do.

The worrisome child planted a seed. There was hope, doubt, and a mixture of exhaustion. Once that leaf popped out from the ground, the humble smile manifested on the face of the miraculous young soul.